Railway. Abandon. Desire (Portrait)

Another portrait shooting.
Specially thanks to Alexander and Christine.
Other cameramen who participated on that day were A Ray, Kaiwoon and Torto.
Venue : Abandon railway in N.S
Date: Dec 2010

-finally these photos are done
-am looking forwards for more portrait shooting, any models out there??
-all shooting are F.O.C

What comes to your mind?

HE said " Lemonade sounds not so tasty, the one you made taste not bad though "
- I wonder...it lingers in my mind for days...still pondering...

Dad said "....God's always fair, the unfairness always come for a reason...." hence, I have to bare with it, prelude (the unsatisfied one) can be as such.., once all the 'tools' are still on my hand... ending might/ will at least be the one I satisfied...I supposed.

Sugar-Free sweet...without sugar can a sweet still taste sweet?
Mint is already taste mint...addition of peppermint...seems...ok, perhaps u can imagine it....the extra power...

gimme MORE

This's not about Pepsi ads. Not about Britney Spears' song. I really wish I could get a place where I can shout out loud: GIVE ME MORE....TIMEEEEEEEEE!! I know you might think that Yvonne.G has lost sanity. No. However, 24 hours a day is so insufficient ( for me, after being an undergraduate, especially after half of a semester). *Gasping for air*

Others who are not in this situation, perhaps you'll think that I'm crapping here. Yet others who are experiencing or undergoing the same as me, they, obviously know it pretty much well. Flip out. Stressed. etc. If you can take it in a relax and chill way, then I truly, very deeply congratulate you. You do it great! I'm really going crazy. Means, you're really managing your time well. I failed. That's why I'm struggling now. There's a timetable pasted on my wall, right in front of me now..which can be seen by my naked-eyes, I never really 'obey' / follow it though. That's why!!! Next week gonna have 2 mid terms. Mid term for Research Method is ANYTIME can happen once the lecturer decided - I'm dying after hear this today. Another 'shock-able' news that's next week will be CMT mid term as well on Thursday. Oh gosh.....Assignments loaded weeks. I'm so not looking forward this week, as well as the following weeks. Need MORE timeeeeeeee

I might plan to spend most of my spare time staying in the library. Whenever I was in my room, the bed is so damn seducing. Most of time lying on it and...enter to another world of mine - dreamland. Or, I'll start reading something which is totally not related to my study, such as magazine or friction books. BTW, I'm sort of lazy to online or log on to any sides as I've sat too much in school, ain't gonna stick my butt again  on the chair for the sake of online. Torturing my butt... I'm having a dilemma of late. I'm not gonna mention why.....Need MORE sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep

Hope everything will keep on track, hence I would be able to get back home in the mid of March. To have my second follow-up. Hope everything would be fine...It's so troublesome for weeks. And of course..i very, do miss my lil sister. Everyday, once I see her face is appeared on my hp as the caller picture, I'm happy to pick it up and speak to her. Her soft and beautiful kiddie voice made my day. What I was being told was, soon there'll be 2 new members come to my house. So welcome them - 2 puppies, gift from my dad's friends.  ( No more Toy Poodle T__T ) Need family love MORE

Oh ya, before I get back to my work ( yeah, i sneak from my work to blog lil now XP), after a hectic and exhausted day, while we were having dinner at block G, we saw the Sky was smiling to us. It was really a smiley face up in the sky. How nice..wonderful. God's smiling to us and asking us not to give up =) Thanks! I love you, God!! Love God MORE

I'm so in love with the song Rocketeer, by Far East Movement and What The Hell, by Avril.L. I love skin tight jeans ( skin fit jeans), black plain tees ( or other colour will do), middle top Converse Shoes. No matter is cycling to school or walking around the campus, plug-in iPod. I'm addicted to musics. Some songs were just good enough to make me feel more energetic after a not-really-fine day, not as bad as ... I don't know. Thus, I need MORE songs for my ipod! If I were dare enough...I really wish to get myself a skateboard..and skate to uni..whoaaa....cool~ ( Ok, I'm too much of Rocketeer..LOL ) Craaaaaaazy MORE

<3 You all - PeAs - Friendship 4ever

I gtg..
Adios~~

Sweet VS Medicine

Woke up early in the morning, then drove to KPJ, consulted general surgeon. I hate taking medicine, now worst still, doctor prescribed me LIQUID medic!! It written on the bottle 'sugar-free' =.=( I've never try/apply any medicine which is SWEET)
What problem I have? - There are improper digestion, flatulence, heartburn etc...Conclusion, either gastric ulcer or gastric. But can feel the harden/swollen part from my skin,body (externally) SIGH. 2 years ago, 1 diagnosis I got from ultrasound/x-ray, it showed a group of UNIDENTIFIED TISSUES near my abdomen. Alien!! It's so,extremely, bothering me since last month...mentally, physically, emotionally. Yes, I really should adjust my meal time. Keep eyeballing what food I take in. Proper diet and have adequate eye-shut..MUST. I know...I'll 'get rid' of it soon! Must Battle! I hope..once medication finished, by 2 weeks, I can post up a blog which is about GOOD NEWS!! XD

But now, officially, is in week 5 of teaching week. This's the peak timing for assignments. I've touched / started none yet! I have to catch up a.s.a.p! And oh gosh, week 7-8 will be mid term exam? crap!! I've no idea what i've learnt from the beginning of this semester. What is the structure for Personality, Cognitive Psych, CMT, Research Method and PM!! Whoaaa...I need more time for revision!! Seriously needed!! What the heck am I still enjoying my sweet time in uni?!

Dad reached KLIA at 3pm today. Before this, I was wondering will he forget to prepare a valentine gift? I sent him a sms, hope he saw it once he checked his hp at night. Just sort a reminder. He never let me down ^_^ He did prepare when we went to fetch him. It was a Lancome (Paris) perfume. It was my mom's favourite perfume brand. Happy Valentine's Day to them..and my all my lovely friends!!
( I can sense that..can see from their face as well, they actually kind of worried about me...I'm heading back to Perak on Tues evening. They...SADNESS is hugely and clearly written on their face. I'm emo as causing them depressed..)

Dinner desserts. Love shaped =)

~Your so-called puzzle of mystery...I can't solve. I figure-out nothing. My bad for poor understanding I have on you. Why can't you just telling me either YES or NO? I'm just thinking of You.~

i . SURPRISE!!

I was just so damn boring just now. To kill boredom, I borrowed (took) some colour papers from my sister and started to 'build' some studio-liked background in my room. Black, Blue and White. Played with the colour contrast between the paper-made background and iPod.
After the snapping, I editted by adding text.
The result shown,...i think...there's still, technically (especially my skills), a lot of room for improvement.

Converse

Blue Converse low-top shoes.

Unexpected

Yesterday- 
10.15am, I received an urgent and frightening phone call. By 10.30am I have to decide whether to go back to hometown or not. Finally I gave it a Yes. 11.00am, I reached KTM station. Luckily there was still ticket available, but only to KL Central. The train left at 11.35am. I made it.

Within the 15mins I had to make decision. Struggling. Confusing. There were things I hadn't finish done. Felt like I'm so irresponsible to my group members. Yesterday I should take over the booth for the Psychology Club Recruitment Drive and T-Shirt Design Competition. Night there was a meeting to be carried out for assignments. I ended up choosing my family first. During that few minutes, I tried to calm myself down, think properly...and still choose to go back. It's tiring especially to travel back and forth by train. But what to do? They are my family. My dad is in Philippine, I have to take care of my mom and sister since what had happened to my neighbour that night. Area here is no longer save. Now I am pondering what's the purpose of hiring security guard??

Days before yesterday - 
It was a fine day. I got my result from Uni of Cambridge, UK. I passed. Shall I move? Government already banked-in to my coursemates' acc, except me. I still manage to get my tuition fees settled by yesterday. And I was being told that some will receive it in March. Night, we the group of people, worked out together, got all the poster and flyers done in a day. Not really a day, but in a few hours. They are FAST, EFFECTIVE and EFFICIENT. I designed a mask, it reminded me of You. All your words are my memento. Never forget. Sorry that I suspected you, I really don't understand you and that's why... Anyhow, your early morning greeting short message made my day again. It motivates me everyday. I want to be as determined as you, less complains, work more.

Well, after stop running for 2 years (due to my health problem and surgery), this year onward I shall back to this interest again. I have been running the Seremban Half Marathon from 2006-2009. That day YW just asked me to run Energizer Night Run in Sepang. Too bad I can't . ( All the best to YW for the run, don't too NOOB and run the wrong track..LOL) There's another Bidor Half Marathon in end of April. FINAL EXAM lah! How to run? =.= And then hor, I don't even run a single mile last few months...My running shoes become 1 of the deco for my room...swt. Last few days when I was planning to go for a morning jog, my MP3 died (R.I.P). Saw a 3rd generation iPod, seems not bad. Easy to mobile as it's in tiny size. I don't need a new and high tech gadget, I just need one which is able to listen to MP3. That's enough.

My dad used to say this to me - Have some fun in university, but not too much. LOL We, seriously need to sort of enjoy our schooling life. Said is always easier than done! I know. I keep telling myself I have to at least try to live my life to the fullest. After reading The Five People You Will Meet in Heaven, written by Mitch Albom, I appreciate my life more than ever. Change the perception view of me, my life and lots of things. An objects consists of 360 degree, as well as a matter in live, there could have different angle point of view. Why do we need to be stubborn to ourselves- Get ourselves tripped up by minor mistakes and burnout...?

Although my parents often say that result ain't anything, I can still sense that they actually do care. They advised, there's nothing to be competed. Don't kiasu. Under some circumstances, I'll still have the pressure as I don't want to let them down. Now what's in their mind is - "Oh no, psychologist in Msia is not in well-paid field. OR Psychologist has the higher chance than others to be psycho. OR God please save her, she's in photography fever etc " Sigh. Paranoid. Hence, the stress I have is pushing me to study harder. From sem1 to Sem2, to be frankly, my result improved. CGPA is higher than previous sem. My stupid mind keep telling to aim for better result in coming sem. I'm greedy! Besides, I don't want government to hold my PTPTN!! ( Why am I competing with myself? ridiculous thought. What a competition between me and my mind...). Conscious or unconscious? Is this my persona?

Aww, I'm currently reading a book written by Micheal Freeman, who's a Professional Photographer. ( Check out HERE for his webpage) BUT, the book is printed out in Chinese version. OMG, it's so gonna torture me to read it. >_< All his photos have a feeling...

Bunny Year ( Part 2) - Dinner

Yup, this blog is about food! A dinner which costs RM1.0K  'How delicious' - the heart said!! At Regent Restaurant.
BUT, i still prefer homecook cuisine! Imagine all the family members squeeze in a kitchen just to prepare a dinner, for special occasion. ( IF the kitchen is small, if it's not....for sure can't squeeze la...)

Bunny Year ( Part 1)

Happy Bunny Year to everyone. Finally....I'm free to update my blog NOW! I was actually just got back from visitation + family dinner. So, today and days after will be Part 2. Too many photos I snapped. Moments I wouldn't want to miss or being left out. No way I could! So, together with my new lens ( Tamron 18-200mm) I'm happy enough to be a 'camera-girl' . I could hear my name Yvonne / Shien being called often just because they as well, don't wanna miss any of the 'precious' moment.

Well, somebody just told me that people will appreciate me as I snap their family photos. Some will email to them, some they'll provide me their thumbdrive, some will be tagged in FB... Yes, every each of the relatives or friends ( especially dad's friends who came to visit from other states) I took. Although it was freaking exhausted and imagine I'm holding the DSLR with Tamron lens!! It ain't light. Of course tripod stand will be my 'assistant'. It's so much helpful. Yes it's! If without this tripod stand, I wouldn't get the chance to take My Family photos. *TREASURE* The most tiring would be the 1st day of CNY, we went to my dad's grandma's ( my great grandma) house. My dad's uncles and aunties were all there!! There were about 60-70 people in the house @_@ SOOOO PACKED! But it was fun! LOL. Lots of angpau we got! ngekngek! hua hee hua hee

[CAUTIONS- photo-logs here]

CNY Eve:

This's my house -  side view

Baba's traditional deco 

Gift

Grandpa's pet =.= Hamster

Home-cooked cuisine 

duck - ku dum bak ( if not mistakn with the pronoun)

fire crackers

last minute deco in grandpa's house

CNY Day 1:

Neighbor's house ( 7ish am =.=)

The kiss is more expensive than the angpau LOL

A 'lui bin' ( Hokkien - money lover)

Humor one

Dad and Syakira

Again this stairs is wide and long! Upstairs is even spacious 

Grandpa's house has about 8 rooms if I'm not mistaken

soft candy!!!

The G. Family

The father and son ( Junior)

Crowded place (house) - g.grandma's house

Woo..the centre one is great grandma ( grandma's mom)

Baby Moo - Isaac. Poor lil boy just discharged from SSH. 

Isaac only wants me dad to carry..ishk!

This corridor is at least 20 ft. Nite....it seems longer walk @_@

grandpa's house

iphone on hand =.=

adorable baby girl

Makan Makan at grandpa's house - Isaac was looking here!! hehe

Welcoming guests - dad's friends

That red shirt uncle wanna keep fit - This's ladies' corner la!! XP

The lil bro so shy!!

Happy family. I'll truly miss them b'cos they came along from KL

Friends who i'll only meet once a year >.< ( Facebook got la! LOL)

handmade lobster by dad's former teacher PRO!!!

BBQ wah

Old paulian gathering ( dad's friends)

CNY Day 2:

Hainan boy! lol

Hainan cuisine by my mum's aunty! 

This's the most sensitive dragonfly I've ever seen! I could only snap it few feet away!!

Durian OMG

Have been waiting for so long, yet this bird was 'shy' and refused to look at me ><

Words by my mum's uncle! He wrote every year for CNY.

I'm still weak in photography..seriously! My uncle is more pro! His lens are all pro lens! I thought he's only interested in mountain climbing, never know he's another pro in photography. He shared (taught) some ideas for photo shooting! He has breadth of experiences in photography! OMG! 

Hope I can done with the part 2 before I'm leaving Sban! ^^ 

Once again, Happy Chinese New Year!!

*I realised I haven't upload for the Christmas party 2010 >.< *