Unexpected

Yesterday- 
10.15am, I received an urgent and frightening phone call. By 10.30am I have to decide whether to go back to hometown or not. Finally I gave it a Yes. 11.00am, I reached KTM station. Luckily there was still ticket available, but only to KL Central. The train left at 11.35am. I made it.

Within the 15mins I had to make decision. Struggling. Confusing. There were things I hadn't finish done. Felt like I'm so irresponsible to my group members. Yesterday I should take over the booth for the Psychology Club Recruitment Drive and T-Shirt Design Competition. Night there was a meeting to be carried out for assignments. I ended up choosing my family first. During that few minutes, I tried to calm myself down, think properly...and still choose to go back. It's tiring especially to travel back and forth by train. But what to do? They are my family. My dad is in Philippine, I have to take care of my mom and sister since what had happened to my neighbour that night. Area here is no longer save. Now I am pondering what's the purpose of hiring security guard??

Days before yesterday - 
It was a fine day. I got my result from Uni of Cambridge, UK. I passed. Shall I move? Government already banked-in to my coursemates' acc, except me. I still manage to get my tuition fees settled by yesterday. And I was being told that some will receive it in March. Night, we the group of people, worked out together, got all the poster and flyers done in a day. Not really a day, but in a few hours. They are FAST, EFFECTIVE and EFFICIENT. I designed a mask, it reminded me of You. All your words are my memento. Never forget. Sorry that I suspected you, I really don't understand you and that's why... Anyhow, your early morning greeting short message made my day again. It motivates me everyday. I want to be as determined as you, less complains, work more.

Well, after stop running for 2 years (due to my health problem and surgery), this year onward I shall back to this interest again. I have been running the Seremban Half Marathon from 2006-2009. That day YW just asked me to run Energizer Night Run in Sepang. Too bad I can't . ( All the best to YW for the run, don't too NOOB and run the wrong track..LOL) There's another Bidor Half Marathon in end of April. FINAL EXAM lah! How to run? =.= And then hor, I don't even run a single mile last few months...My running shoes become 1 of the deco for my room...swt. Last few days when I was planning to go for a morning jog, my MP3 died (R.I.P). Saw a 3rd generation iPod, seems not bad. Easy to mobile as it's in tiny size. I don't need a new and high tech gadget, I just need one which is able to listen to MP3. That's enough.

My dad used to say this to me - Have some fun in university, but not too much. LOL We, seriously need to sort of enjoy our schooling life. Said is always easier than done! I know. I keep telling myself I have to at least try to live my life to the fullest. After reading The Five People You Will Meet in Heaven, written by Mitch Albom, I appreciate my life more than ever. Change the perception view of me, my life and lots of things. An objects consists of 360 degree, as well as a matter in live, there could have different angle point of view. Why do we need to be stubborn to ourselves- Get ourselves tripped up by minor mistakes and burnout...?

Although my parents often say that result ain't anything, I can still sense that they actually do care. They advised, there's nothing to be competed. Don't kiasu. Under some circumstances, I'll still have the pressure as I don't want to let them down. Now what's in their mind is - "Oh no, psychologist in Msia is not in well-paid field. OR Psychologist has the higher chance than others to be psycho. OR God please save her, she's in photography fever etc " Sigh. Paranoid. Hence, the stress I have is pushing me to study harder. From sem1 to Sem2, to be frankly, my result improved. CGPA is higher than previous sem. My stupid mind keep telling to aim for better result in coming sem. I'm greedy! Besides, I don't want government to hold my PTPTN!! ( Why am I competing with myself? ridiculous thought. What a competition between me and my mind...). Conscious or unconscious? Is this my persona?

Aww, I'm currently reading a book written by Micheal Freeman, who's a Professional Photographer. ( Check out HERE for his webpage) BUT, the book is printed out in Chinese version. OMG, it's so gonna torture me to read it. >_< All his photos have a feeling...