Bad patch

Uninvited guests. Broken bicycle. Appliances not functioning. Termites. etc. I can't think of any other word which can replace the title above. And yesterday I hop onto bed pretty early, 9ish. In the middle of night, the stupid wooden bed collapsed! It really collapsed as the beneath of the bed there's some wood to support it, it broke into half! WTF! It hurts my back!! I stayed up late... Went to make a complain to the management office, the reply I got was : We'll fix it for you on Monday... damnit!! When it comes to the deadline of paying a rental ( end of month) they'll never say this " We'll allow you to pay in a bit..." NEVER!! Indeed.

I know as a psychology student, studied Personality or some other psychology subjects, and start thinking of life has hit a bad patch, it's crap! Common sense please! I know! Yet the more it happened, the more I came to realize. Speechless. It's like everyday there's something to happen. I'm ready for it. ( I know people will say that to me like Law of Attraction, Secrets, i.e. I'm leading those luck to me...) So what about Murphy's Law. Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong. I'm really sick of these foolish!

Always try to compel myself, 'Close my eyes and pretend everything is a nightmare..it's not real..." The same thing happen over and over again. FINE! It's useless. Ain't gonna help! I shall care not to anything.

Where's my fortune? Is it being lock in a box? Do I need to get a key to unlock it? noob! Say it in a courteous way, it symbolize nothing. Homicide the curse!!

These's not all about ups and downs. These are all small matters, yet too frustrating, obnoxious! ( Life's like roller coaster! When it goes UP, you feel boring; when it goes DOWN, you scream out loud excitingly!) So yeah, I'm flip out! It's totally trip me up! Is like I'm getting very 'pek cik'/ grumpy. Unpredictable!

Then my body. It's so not cooperative! DARNED IT! My stomach is hurting me often lately! Eat or no eat..the same goes to me - uncomfortable sickening! Not gastric, but I don't know why?!!

Ok, I don't need a campus to navigate my way my thought my heart or whatever! I know what am I doing. Don't need to negotiate anything. I owe nothing.  I'll learn how to remove temptation. If I lose speed, therefore time! Worthless! I hope there's a chance for me to exchange. Take out my fortune from the box, cut out my heart and lock it inside! Pain no more! Haven't die, but feel nothing.

I was not interested in formulating my point of view now ( no matter is depression or loneliness that track me down), I was interested only in saving my life. I want all these misery to be completely vacuumed out of me! I shall stay strong! Hence when tempest comes, I can deal with it! Truthfully, I'm not a best person in dealing all sort of drag-me-down-obstacles...yet I'll TRY! YES TRY! * Keep my fingers crossed...*